They can say ....

Hmm, i met with someone yesterday.."Adli, betul ke......etc etc etc". I guess people will never puas hati, to let other people have their own life and be just plainly what they are. Sometime i wonder how these people manage to say something bad about you behind your back and than still can show their face, saying sweet words, in front of you and pretend like they did nothing. Yupp, they don't know that i know, but isn't guilt is there?

I guess it come to certain point, where i had become "numb" to these kind of things. Nevertheless, i still feel really sick when i think of how great their acting were. At one point, i really hope they just be harsh, say it out loud, show what they really feel, rather than pretending. The other say they had to act nice to me, for lot of other reason which for me is ridiculous if they really really hate me.

It is so hard for me to show my face and to be there, looking at them trying to "mengampu". Everytime i had to be around them, i had unexplain symptoms, felt wanna puke, great discomfort, and so on. When it time to get out, it is like freedom to a prisoner. I hate feeling like that, but i can't help it....i can't stop wondering ....why they can't stop pretending..?

I don't do anything to them, i didn't touch them at all, neither talk about them...Why can't they just leave me alone with my life....?